Direct Messages
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13'
114 messages
Rock 20-Sep-18 07:03 PM
Added a recipient.
ok
Shreth 20-Sep-18 07:03 PM
Alright
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 07:48 PM
@Shreth hey. 😁
Shreth 20-Sep-18 07:48 PM
What's up
How's it going?
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 07:49 PM
Not too much. Kind of tired and what not. I heard you've got something going on?
Shreth 20-Sep-18 07:50 PM
Yeah man I like cant control my thoughts
They just ramble on and on about dumb things
Like worries that don't even matter (edited)
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 07:51 PM
Hmm. Lots of intrusive thoughts?
Shreth 20-Sep-18 07:51 PM
Yeah exactly.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 07:51 PM
Any worms in your vision?
Shreth 20-Sep-18 07:51 PM
Not a lot
Rarely
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 07:52 PM
So no floaters?
Shreth 20-Sep-18 07:52 PM
I'm pretty sure
I might have missed some
idk
Sometimes I see like dust
As well
Nothing like worms though
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 07:53 PM
Okay. That's good. But intrusive thoughts? Violent thoughts, sexual, angry?
Shreth 20-Sep-18 07:54 PM
Hmm
All three I suppose
Kind of my fault (edited)
Can't control my emotions
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 07:54 PM
Okay, I think I might know what's the matter then.
I use to have a very hard time with controlling my depression. I let it control me for the longest time.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 07:55 PM
Oh I have kicked depression's ass so far but
I still get stuck in my thoughts
Like for example
If I'm chilling with a girl, she starts flirting with me and then I freeze up and think about sooo many random things, to the point where I can't respond.
That's the kind that's messed with me the most
Always my fault
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 07:57 PM
Are you sure it's not just anxiety or something like that?
Shreth 20-Sep-18 07:57 PM
It's definitely anxiety
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 07:57 PM
So, anxiety and anger?
Shreth 20-Sep-18 07:57 PM
Yeah.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 07:58 PM
Okay, but what are you angry about?
Shreth 20-Sep-18 07:58 PM
I don't know.
Maybe mistrust.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:00 PM
So, mistrust? Parental issues?
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:00 PM
Yeah probably
Still not a very good relationship with parents.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:01 PM
I have parental issues growing up too.
Had
I hate to get way to personal, but I'm trying to get a feel of who you are.
😇
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:03 PM
I see.
No worries.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:03 PM
You can ask me questions too? Like anything you want, I'm an open book.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:04 PM
What's your name?
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:04 PM
Hitting the name first. I'm Zach, or John, or Lain, or whatever they call me sometimes.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:05 PM
Nice, that's interesting. 3 aliases?
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:06 PM
Well, kind of. Lain is what I became known as. John is another name and so on. I kind of exist but I dont.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:07 PM
Huh, I wonder why you say you don't?
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:07 PM
It's a long story, the longer we talk the more you'll understand. I'm not normal, and ill just say that.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:08 PM
I see
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:10 PM
I'm getting mixed up here on something. Are you black? And I hate to get too personal. Just wondering if that is you or if you're the other guy.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:10 PM
Nah I'm white.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:11 PM
Okay. Then, okay. I got you, I wonder who that was.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:11 PM
No idea.
Could it have been anyone?
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:12 PM
Yeah, it could be anyone.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:12 PM
Got it...
So you see me now?
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:13 PM
Ugh, nah. 😶
You are hidden.
😁
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:13 PM
Is that good or bad?
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:14 PM
Do I freak you out?
🐷
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:14 PM
Well kind of when you said I am hidden.
I mean... I don't know what that's supposed to mean.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:15 PM
It means nothing. I just cant see you. I mean, I see something, but it's really nothing.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:16 PM
Is it possible that you'll be able to see me?
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:16 PM
Are you really skinny? Lanky maybe?
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:16 PM
Nope
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:16 PM
Okay, I have nothing.
But it's a possibility at a later point.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:17 PM
Oh okay good.
I think my thoughts are just cloudy right now.
Don't know why.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:18 PM
I seen someone at a computer screen but its hazy and dark. And it's slightly confusing.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:19 PM
Sounds like me.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:19 PM
Flannel or something.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:20 PM
No flannel.
I'm pretty plain rn.
No fancy designs on my clothes or anything.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:20 PM
Ah. Never mind. I am not getting nothing.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:20 PM
Ah alright
Good
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:20 PM
But let's be friends?
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:20 PM
Of course.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:21 PM
Yay.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:21 PM
Why would I say no?
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:22 PM
I dont know, some people dont want to be my friend.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:22 PM
Sorry to hear that.
Then it's just not meant to be, that's how I take it.
But we can be friends.
I wouldn't say no unless I had good reason.
You've shown me no good reason to do so.
You know what I mean or am I being cryptic
sorry if i am.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:26 PM
No, I get what you are saying.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:26 PM
Ah good.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:27 PM
I must go now, it's nice talking to you. I'll talk to you later.
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:27 PM
Nice talking with you.
Let's talk again.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:27 PM
Okay!
Shreth 20-Sep-18 08:28 PM
God bless you.
The Water-Bearer 'Air of 13' 20-Sep-18 08:28 PM
God bless you!
Shreth 19-Nov-18 04:01 PM
Removed a recipient.